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Week 4, Completed Two More Comic Characters

Monday: 2017-01-23

Administrative work, checking emails, applied for jobs and such. Managed to finish off the third character for my upcoming comic! The character took quite some time to finish, even though it is simplistic in its design. Was having some issues deciding which design I wanted to go with, so I had to try many different things until I found what was working… this took quite some time, didn’t finish until late in the afternoon. Anyhow, I’m really happy with how the character turned out!

I’m not making ANY type of character… I’m actually putting real design effort into it, making them unique and stand out from the other thousands manmade characters in the world.

Hopefully my characters will stand out and become known worldwide!

Tuesday: 2017-01-24

A very productive day, I did some minor adjustments on the second character and then moved on to begin work on the third character.

It felt good to work on an empty stomach; I’ve basically decided to fast from dawn to sunset every day. It feels great, I feel lighter and more relaxed which helps me focus better.

Anyhow, I managed to finish the third character in one day, worked from 8 AM to 7 PM, so that’s 11 hours of work on the third character, but I’m also including the time it took to cook food, eat and other daily life thingies. So I guess it really only took 9 hours or something like that.

I felt like doing more work after finishing the third character, so I began on the fourth one! And everything went smoothly, worked from 7 PM to 2 AM, so that’s another 7 hours of work and I almost managed to finish the fourth character! Well, actually I did finish it, but decided to add some more design elements that fit the character, so one or two hours more and it would’ve been done as well.

If only sleep wasn’t important!

Wednesday: 2017-01-25

Continued working on the fourth character, apparently it took more time than expected to finish it. The final design element was a bit more complex; I had to make over thirty copies of the same detail LOOK different, took five hours to finish, instead of the predicted two hours.

Anyways, I was pretty much tired after all this work so I spent the rest of the day just chilling, cooking food for my family and tried out a new game “Overwatch” by Blizzard. Played it for six hours straight, but got bored of it, don’t get me wrong, the game is great, but it’s just not my type of game, too much aiming-aid. It removes one important skill that separates bad and good players… which makes it even more difficult to carry a match, WHICH MEANS your success depends on others. And I hate those kinds of games!

That’s why I play CSGO, it is team based, however; it still allows for the opportunity for you to win the game, even if you are alone against a whole team.

I remember one game that I will remember forever, and that is Unreal Tournament, the original. Damn that game was great. Nothing beats it, and I’m afraid playing Overwatch just made me reminisce of the good old times. I remember my aiming skills made clans chase after me and I jumped from clan to clan.

My aim in Counter Strike was also great, however, it doesn’t translate well into CSGO, the latest version of Counter Strike. I kept wondering why… that perhaps my skills suck? However, it turns out that CSGO has a system called “Lagg compensation”, meaning the hitbox (the thing that gets hit when people shoot at you) is always lagging behind depending on the other player’s connection latency.

For example, let’s say an enemy sees you, and you run behind a corner to hide. Well, if the enemy shoots, you will still get hit, even if you are completely behind the corner. Because they are hitting your hitbox, that is lagging behind FOR THEIR SAKE, because THEY have bad latency!

Now, on the other hand, if you play LAN, or on a server where everybody has a equally low latency, then this problem doesn’t exist.

Thursday: 2017-01-26

Not one of my proudest days, did absolutely no work at all.

I did apply for jobs, which I do daily, but other than that I didn’t write any comic scripts, didn’t write anything in my novels and I didn’t design anything either.

I just played the whole day away, no idea why, but I just felt like doing absolutely nothing today. Couldn’t be that I overate yesterday and basically had zero sleep because I would wake up every two hours to visit the restroom.

If I only had a wife or wives to keep track of my eating and make sure I don’t do anything wrong!

Friday: 2017-01-27

Same as yesterday, just not feeling like doing anything… the only solution is taking those daily walks… but it is still too damn cold outside. Oh well, I’m still trying to do some kind of work at least, I keep making to-do lists and jotting down ideas.

For example, I discovered that I need a couple of additional characters, some of them will be re-occurring a lot while others will probably only see light just once or twice (according to the scripts I have written so far). But you never know, I have plenty more scripts to write, I’ve only covered around 10% of the topics and that alone produced almost 100 scripts or so.

Anyhow, I’m leaning towards just making the characters that will be re-occurring more detailed, and other side-characters to be more symbolic. I’m already using a lot of stereotyping for my characters, but the side-characters will be even more so!

Saturday: 2017-01-28

Worked a little on my streaming profile, removed the old design I had on twitch and designed something much simpler. Spent the day designing new elements to go with the new design, which took quite some time.

Sunday: 2017-01-29

Continued from where I left off yesterday, finished up some of the major work on the design for my new streaming “profile”.

I believe it is time to start streaming and stop pushing that to the side all the time, I doubt I will be getting lots of viewers anyways; I’m not exactly a social butterfly. But, I do want to stream, it seems like a fun concept, I’m hoping it will give me more public exposure and thus be another channel for me to market my books and other work.

I streamed for a couple of hours, tried out different settings but was not happy at all with the stream equality. Stayed up to 4 AM! Oh well, will have to do some more experimenting tomorrow.

 

Hope your week was fine as well! Feel free to share anything you’ve done over the past week or if there is any book, movie or series you want to recommend. I’ll make sure to check it out and give my opinion.

Thanks for reading!

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 3, Character Designing for Upcoming Comic Strip

Monday: 2017-01-16

Did the usual Monday stuff, applied for a couple of jobs, checked email, also decided to publish these weekly journal blog thingies on Sunday night, or rather at midnight. No clue why, it just happened, deal with it!

Been thinking a lot about the comic, managed to write a few scripts today, but I really had the urge to start drawing out a few strips and perhaps start publishing on a weekly basis. I have enough material to run the comic for one year, and I’m hoping I will manage to write more with time.

If you’ve been reading my blog-journal-thingies, then you will remember that my initial plan was to write twenty scripts a day, and basically have 200 scripts ready in just ten days… yeah, that didn’t happen. Reality kicked in and I simply have to adjust. I believe switching things between writing and drawing will kill downtime. I know I talked about combining playing games and work, but why not combine two different kinds of work instead? Writing will be the intensive work and drawing will be the relaxing work.

Anyways, that’s the plan, and I spent the day gathering resources and such to begin the designs of the other characters.

Tuesday: 2017-01-17

Didn’t do much work today, zero writing basically, spent time mostly on the character designs. Was having trouble with the face and how big the head should be compared to the body. Tried out different version until I found what I was looking for. Then I went ahead and began inking the final design, a very slow and tedious process.

I’m already looking forward to work on the other characters; I know I need a couple more standard characters that I will be re-using over and over. According to the scripts I have written, there will be a couple re-occurring characters, so might as well do those too.

Wednesday: 2017-01-18

Not much to report, continued from where I left off yesterday, the inking process is much more time consuming than I thought. It is coming along nicely though.

I also contemplated a little about using color instead just black and white, I’m not quite sure yet, will research deeper into it tomorrow. I was hoping that using color would stand out from the crowd since most comics are black and white.

Thursday: 2017-01-19

Still working on the inking process of one of the characters, I will probably never make another character like this one with this many details. I want to keep the comic very simple and quick, however, I had to invest this much time on details for this character because it is part of its story and personality. Anyways, it is almost finished, can’t wait to start on the next characters.

Friday: 2017-01-20

Finally finished the character I have been working on, I quickly colored it to test how it would look like and I love how it turned out. However, I will be spending some hours tomorrow, or next week to really figure out the coloring. I’m after a specific kind of style, will have to experiment later on. It is important that the coloring “feels” the same across all characters. So I will probably wait a little with the coloring part until I do more research into it and try out the characters side by side to make sure they don’t clutter things up or take away attention from each other.

I might need to adjust the line-weight as well, to make sure all the designs are uniform and don’t compete for attention.

Saturday: 2017-01-21

Did some minor adjustments to the character I have been working on, it took a couple of hours, had to do some last minute design choices, moved around some stuff and removed whatever wasn’t working for me.

When I was happy with that, I then moved on to work on the third character, which is a much simpler character. The initial design went smoothly; I will be keeping the details to a minimum. However, I know I want freckles on this one, so perhaps only the face will be detailed.

Once I was happy with the concept I then began inking and solve issues along the way such how each part connect etcetera. I did get carried away and added too many details, so I had to go back and redo some of the work.

Sunday: 2017-01-22

Most unproductive day of the week, I had a severe headache since morning.

Spent the first half of the day chilling out and playing some games, and then I watched a classic movie in the afternoon, hoping it would make the headache disappear, but that didn’t work at all. Had to stay in bed the rest of the day, caught up with news and stuff of what is going on in the world. I’ve basically ignored all news for the past month, and honestly, there isn’t any new news. Just a repetition of the same old same old. The only good news is that Donald Trump is president now, I’m really happy about that and I’m not even an American. However, it is sad to see all these racists opening their ugly mouths; they are the devil’s constituents. GOD tells us that we were created different so we can learn from each other and appreciate GOD’s beautiful creations, just like how flowers are different. So, only the devil will tell an individual to hate other people just because they are different.

Anyhow, Trump sure has some very cool ideas, like building the wall. He has gotten a lot of hate because of this, but think about it… imagine if your house didn’t have a door, and people would sneak into your house and take your stuff or hide under your bed… a silly comparison, but logically, it is the same thing.

Oh well, I hope everything works out well and Trump keeps his promises, otherwise GOD will smite him.

 

Hope your week was fine as well! Feel free to share anything you’ve done over the past week or if there is any book, movie or series you want to recommend. I’ll make sure to check it out and give my opinion.

Thanks for reading!

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 2, Play at Work is a Winning Concept

Monday: 2017-01-09

Finally back to writing… and it didn’t go that well, feel a bit rusty! I did write a couple of good scripts for the comic and came up with additional character design. I also figured out that I need one more character, but was having a hard time coming up with something that hasn’t been done to death. Will continue brainstorming tomorrow!

Also did the usual Monday stuff, like administrative work and such. Was really fired up for going out on my daily 8 km walk, but it was quite damp outside with tiny cute raindrops. Oh well… hopefully tomorrow will be different.

Tuesday: 2017-01-10

Yay, finally, went out for my 8 km walk… came back home running after just half an hour! Too windy, too cold and too many distractions! I only managed to write one script during the walk, really disappointing. Oh well, things got better once I got home, tidied things up in the library and sat down to continue where I left off yesterday! And guess what, I managed to come up with the fourth character; the character is hilarious… if you like dark humor. I’m probably going to get a lot of heat from lots of rights groups and shitty humans like that. But oh well, that’s life.

I modified the design of the main character and then began drawing out one of the other characters. I have the concept that I want, but was not happy with any of the designs so far. Wrote a couple more scripts, it is becoming like a chore now, I feel very drained, but I keep pushing myself, really want to complete this project. Sometimes I feel so drained that I contemplate becoming a coffee drinker. But naaah, never.

Wednesday: 2017-01-11

Absolutely no energy today, yet I still managed to write at least eight comic scripts. Confusing, usually I get less done when I’m putting all my focus and energy into it. Oh well, writing works in mysterious ways.

I kept going back and forth between playing games and writing, after every round of CSGO I would sit down and write. Then before the next match starts I look up what topic to write about, so I do most of the thinking during the match. It reminded me a lot about college, I would play World of Warcraft at least 14 hours a day and still managed to get straight A, did the homework while playing! The pvp arena queues back then were very long, like sometimes you had to wait 10 minutes just to get into Warsong Gulch.

Looking for a PvE group was even more tedious, you had to look for people manually through the chat and the social window by searching for people in the level range you are looking for and talk to at least 20 people to form a proper 5 man team. You had to keep track of everybody as well, some people would leave so you had to find replacements and such.

My tactic was simple, since I was a tank, I could basically do what I want and get away with it, good tanks were worshiped back then. Anyhow, I would just find ONE person and then tell him or her to do the rest bwahahaha *evil grin*

But most of the time I would just get spammed daily about doing some tanking for people, so it wasn’t that bad.

Also, usually people would need to go away to eat dinner or use the restroom, so there was plenty of downtime for me to study.

I will try it again tomorrow and see if I can get more done this way.

Thursday: 2017-01-12

A productive day, although I spent too much of it fooling around, I tried the play games while working thingy and managed write at least 10 comic scripts, which is the highest amount so far. I guess the issue is that I get easily bored with repetitive work, my brain kind of goes to sleep, into day-dream-land. And games are unpredictable, anything can happen, which makes my brain stay awake and satisfied. At least this is my theory, because I feel extremely focused after each match of CSGO which makes me able to write a lot, however, after half an hour my brain begins to sink into day-dream-land.

I remember having the same issue everywhere I worked, for example when I worked as a metal smith, welding and constructing stuff, I would get bored quickly and being day dreaming if the work was repetitive, predictable and not stimulating my brain with opportunities to solve problems. So I would always demand more difficult tasks on a daily basis, after a couple of months I had learned basically everything about that company’s work and how to do it all by myself. However, this meant they no longer had anything new to offer for me to learn… so I began learning how the company was being run… and yeah, I bet you know where this is going. I learned about the customers and the other companies we did business with, proposed solutions and soon I was telling the CEO how to do his job. Then suddenly I get fired! Oh well, when I look at it from the bright side, then at least it ended with something unpredictable, hah!

Friday: 2017-01-13

Wrote a lot today, think 8 or 9 comic scripts… wanted to write more but felt burned out at the end of the day so I went to bed early. However, going to bed doesn’t mean sleeping – in insomnia terms; going to bed means just lying down on the bed, hoping for the best that can happen! Sleeping happens four hours later.

Saturday: 2017-01-14

Didn’t get much done at all, wrote around four scripts and edited two or three to remove grammar errors and misspellings. Spent the whole day playing CSGO more than I should… I’m starting to hate team-based games, like, any game where you depend on others to succeed. Whenever I trust that someone will cover for me, I end up getting stabbed from behind, like literally, that’s the only realistic part of games I guess. Whenever I trust someone in real life, I’m usually going to be disappointed, I just prepare for the worst and sometimes that’s not even enough because what actually happens is worse than the worst, like something that completely ruins your life. Some humans are disgusting beyond saving; the only way to stop their insanity is locking them up for life. They are the kind of people that destroy pieces of society, and with time as such people grow in numbers and strength; society crumbles.

Sunday: 2017-01-15

A good but slow day, wrote a couple of comic scripts, and also came up with a series which I’m probably going to get 30 scripts out of. Not really proud of how I spent the day, played too much. I’m trying to find good single player adventure games that don’t cost a fortune and work on an old computer with 2010 components. It is basically so bad that it turns off now and then as soon as the graphics-card gets too worked out.

Speaking of worked out, I worked out today; I’m predicting some major burn over the next couple of days.

 

Hope your week was fine as well! Feel free to share anything you’ve done over the past week or if there is any book, movie or series you want to recommend. I’ll make sure to check it out and give my opinion.

Thanks for reading!

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 48, Swimming in Presents… From Myself!

Monday:
2016-11-28

First day of my new schedule, it was all going fine, up until the afternoon, a mega headache struck me! I forgot to mention that I was also going to abstain from all candy, chocolate, tea, sugar, soda and such. Since I will be reducing my food intake, I will have to make sure I only eat stuff that maximizes my nutrient intake without risking over eating again. And that’s why I got hit by a major headache, it happens every time I stop drinking tea. Seems like even the innocent tea is a major poison for the body.

I didn’t get much writing done today; I spent most of it applying for jobs, checking mails, posting last week’s blog post, and wasted away playing 7days2die, nerd. I’m slowly learning to avoid Facebooking too much as well. Some people keep trying to argue with me, but they keep repeating their ignorance, so instead of explaining over and over, I’ve decided to leave people to rot in their stupidity. It spares me a lot of time, I wrote a book titled “GOD The Creator”

ISBN-10: 1499753241
ISBN-13: 978-1499753240
ASIN: B00KPH0PKS

This book puts it all into perspective and answers all questions and shatters all those arguments that keep circulating in the mind of atheists. But it also challenges the religious person, giving them new perspectives to look at the whole ordeal and examine if their faith is true or false.

One of my many awaited packages came today; it was the tablet-holder and ink for the printer. I checked those off of my list of things to keep track of stuff.

Anyhow, the pain from the headache made it impossible to do anything, so I watched YouTube and such. I highly recommend the following channel: Good Mythical Morning, with Rhett & Link. It is THE BEST thing that ever happened to YouTube, I can’t believe or rather I REFUSE to accept that they are not getting 500 million views daily at least!

Tuesday:
2016-11-29

Guess what day it is today? Today is today, duh, what did you think? Silly you!

Woke up early, no headache, worked out, prayed, showered, ate, think I ate one sandwich too much though, I ate three, which I’m used to, but I will be reducing it down to two sandwiches, and that will become my standard from now on. Never eat more than two! *repeats like a mantra*

Today was a – fix stuff – day, since I had an headache yesterday and couldn’t fix anything, I then had to do everything today instead. I did some administrative work and went out and bought some stuff I need. Bought electrical wire and a couple plugs, I pulled an electrical wire into the sound booth, yes I am an electrician I can do this! So that’s done! And some special screws and stuff to set up the surf tablet support-arm-thingy.

Two packages arrived today, well, one and a half to be accurate. 25 pieces of A5 lined notebooks, a box of pens, ink corrector, and NOT the USB memory stick that I ordered. So stupid, the entire reason why I even ordered from this online shop is because of the USB memory stick, but no, it was sold out… even though it said it was in stock when I ordered it. So stupid.

The next package was my whey protein and multivitamins, but only half arrived. I contacted support and they said I had ordered too much so they had to split it up into two different packages (without telling me), but whatever, it should arrive tomorrow. When ordering, I was given free stuff to choose from! I picked a pink shaker. Why pink? Because I will look so cool when jogging outside, sipping on a pink flask. No, but it is to make sure nobody touches it!

Anyways, so far so good (except for the USB stick that’s missing).

Wednesday:
2016-11-30

This time I ate only two sandwiches and it felt much better, however, I was still feeling stuffed from last night’s quick meal. I need some slow protein over the night, but I ate too late, will change that to at least two hours before bedtime and see what happens.

Didn’t do much work related, spent most of the day reading.

More packages came in as well, the rest of the protein and vitamin supplements came. Also my microphone and other stuff I ordered for it, yay. Early presents for me!

https://www.instagram.com/p/BNcRazMhUHj/

My sister and her kids came today, my shoes went missing almost immediately… and there was food thrown all over the kitchen, oh the joy of children!

Thursday:
2016-12-01

First day of a new month and THE LAST MONTH, then it is a new year, wow, looking back over the course of this year, I’ve accomplished exactly nothing! Well, not really nothing, there is plenty of work being done. But I’ve just been busy with too much other stuff, also I worked for at least a full year, which took a lot of time away from my writing. It has only been like 12 weeks so far, since I started putting more attention and effort into my writing projects. Yup, basically since I started this journal blogging thingy! So in 12 weeks I’ve only done around 20 000 words spread across different novels, I also did begin on a comic, that has been taking my time as well, otherwise I would’ve written twice that amount. Whatever, things are moving forward, that makes me happy, can’t wait to release and share all of it!

The tablet arrived today, I thought I had ordered the one with built in projector, Lenovo Yoga Tab 3 Pro, but apparently I ordered the wrong version. I was looking at it on an online shop and then saw a review mentioning that it was $200 cheaper if bought directly from the manufacturer. So I went to their website and ordered it. But it turns out the difference was more than just the price, the comparison charts didn’t mention anything other than processor, memory and other technical details. There was no comparison listing different functions. Very bad web design for such a big company. But whatever, turns out the one I ordered was among their latest version with high resolution, so I’m fine with that, I will be using it for reading anyways, and I don’t see where I will find the time to even care about watching movies on a projector.

Didn’t do much work today either, wrote a couple of comic scripts and then went to bed.

Friday:
2016-12-02

Today I thought it was Thursday! Yeah, that’s why I do these journal writing blog thingies, to keep track of time. Do you really think I would’ve known this was Week 48 without this journal keeping? HELL NO! Whatever, it is Friday, went to bed late last night so I wanted to sleep a couple of hours extra today, but nope, neighbor started to hammer away at stuff early in the morning, making the entire building shake.

Spent most of the day with family, I built a shelf in the kitchen for the incoming stuff I bought for the kitcheb, minioven, minimicrowave, ice cream machine, self-baking machine and a mixer. Will be making honey-muesli-whole grain bread and banana milk ice cream, bah, I’m going to make lots of stuff on a daily basis, cheap but super nutritious foods.

Worked out a little, tried out some new things and did a little bit of research. I think I have figured out the best workout routine for my schedule, so I will be incorporating it starting tomorrow (I hope).

A packade came today as well, microSD card and plastic protection for keyboards. Cleaned my keyboard and covered with plastic, so much more sanitary. The plastic is not really plastic, but a synthetic material that kills bacteria, fungi and molds AND it protects against accidently spilling water all over the keyboard! Feels super nice and clean while typing.
The microSD is for the tablet, 128 GB of storage! I transferred all my current ebooks from my computer to my tablet, so now I can just lay down in bed all day and read, yay laziness!

Saturday:
2016-12-03

I lazily turned off my alarm, in hopes of getting more sleep, but oh well, two hours extra sleep didn’t do much. And I missed out on so much because of that, my eating schedual got messed up. Whatever. I got to imprint in my brain “wake up at 6 am no matter what!.”

So what did I do today, I fired up the computer to write a couple of comic scripts, but nope, didn’t feel like it. It feels so boring and cold to sit in front of a computer, the blank canvas, bleh.

However, I do prefer to edit on the computer; it feels like a completely different process that writing. And having material already available makes it less daunting, it removes the “cold” feeling of computer screens.

I chose to just relax and read all day instead, been reading Lovecraft’s work so far and learned a lot. So far so good, I did however stumble upon a couple of writing mistakes. For example, one paragraph was way too descriptive in the novel “At the Mountains of Madness”, it made me lose focus. He should’ve rewritten it, even if it had taken him more words, to keep the flow going and keep the reader absorbed into the story.

Another thing I learned is the importance of characters, for example his character “Adul Alhazred” is soooo damn important for the entire mythos. I just love how Lovecraft is such a master at keeping you at suspense and the “release” never leaves you 100% content, it keeps you wondering.

Anyways, I exercised as well, body was sore from yesterday’s mistake/experiments.

Watched the movie “The Mechanic, Resurrection” while relaxing, and then watched an episode of Good Mythical Morning before falling asleep. I know it’s a morning show, but the whole “feeling” of the show is just so cozy and relaxing, making the perfect show to wake up to and to watch before going to bed. But I prefer to meditate upon waking up and then stay active as much as possible throughout the day, so watching the show before bedtime works out better for me.

Sunday:
2016-12-04

Schedule-wise, the day was perfect. Except that I’ve been skipping my 8 km walks these last couple of days. I’m thinking of tripling my walks since I’ve been the most productive (writing wise) during my walks, and I’ve basically finished most the renovations in the apartment and built everything that is needed. These last couple of weeks has kept me busy with many things other than my projects, so now I’m focusing on getting into the writers’ life again and put all my effort in that area

Anyhow, I spent the day just reading and reading and reading. I did my workouts as well.

I did watch a few episodes of House of Cards, a new series I started watching today, it has an interesting style of filming. But I can’t figure how it will keep the interest up, oh well, I will just watch it until I feel that it is getting repetitive. It is four seasons, so I’m guessing it is good.

I continued reading “At the Mountains of Madness” by H.P. Lovecraft, it is such a slow read. The book is for academics or anyone who enjoys a dark adventure with exploration of the unknown. The minimal amount of dialogue and face to face interaction gives the reader a cold feeling. Also, the book is not about ideas or emotions; it is basically just exploring the physical realm of things, leaving the reader completely free to feel whatever they want to feel or believe whatever they want to believe. A very interesting writing style, but like I said, it only speaks to people who are able to think for themselves, who seek knowledge, not entertainment. The entertainment comes second in “At the Mountains of Madness”, instead, Lovecraft takes you on a realistic adventure. Something that tickles the explorer inside of us and leaves us wanting to explore even further! But I’m just 70% into the book, let’s see how it ends! Usually mystery and horror stories give the reader the “release” at the end.

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 45, Trump is Coming, Get Out of The Way You Sissies!

Monday:
2016-11-07

Should’ve taken my 8 km walk today, but was too lazy about it, so I skipped it. Was a typical slow day.

Applied for some jobs, wrote a few comic scripts and then spent the rest of the day reading news and facebooking. Did some cleaning in the afternoon, cleaned my smartphone from all crap apps, removed all entertainment and installed social media apps instead, I will be making it a pure communication device and instead buy a tablet for pure entertainment purposes, like reading books and watching videos. I believe separating things apart will make me more productive in the long run.

Anyhow, got some nausea at night and felt cold, so I guess I haven’t fully recovered yet, that sucks.

Tuesday:
2016-11-08

Best day ever, went out on my 8 km walk and it felt really good, the only issue is the ink freezing, stupidly annoying. But other than that, I managed to do some writing during my walk and continued to write once I got home! I think I have enough comic scripts to begin drawing and perhaps even releasing a comic strip on a weekly basis. But I want to wait a little while longer, because I’ve discovered that I need more characters, like standard characters. For example I have a character that is a feminist whom I have used quite often so far, so I want to wait a while until I have “discovered” characters that I will be re-using often. For the sake of making the production more fluid and the comic more consistent!

Spent quite a few hours adding stuff to my Amazon.com wish list, in preparation of Black Friday!

The rest of the day went towards facebooking and watching the U.S. presidential election.

Wednesday:
2016-11-09

Oh, look. it is snowing outside, goodnight! Well actually, I was about to go back to bed until my brother was angry that Trump won. I went like “TRUMP WON!?” and he’s like “ye *sad face*”, and I’m like YEEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA TRUMP TRUMP TRUMP TRUMP TRUMP! I turned on the computer and began spamming facebook groups that were filled with leftist trolls, rubbing it into their face. It felt so good, so I basically couldn’t fall asleep. So yeah, most of the day went into facebooking and tormenting leftists, I watched video clips of Hillary supporters crying and it gave me a lot of joy for some reason. It is so sad that these people are so brainwashed, I mean, they wanted to vote for Hillary just because she was a woman. How the hell is that good for the country? It makes no sense, these leftist lacked so much reason and intellect that I felt sorry for them throughout these last weeks. Their behavior is so strange, their logic is so weird, and their ideology is weird and GODLESS. Like, they want to make it legal to kill babies after they are born. So sick.

Anyways, all this madness got me thinking. All civilizations are built by right wing, republic and authoritarian ideas, that’s how all nations come into existence. And then, with time as comfort and luxury improves, there will be enough free time for humans to think of new things and ideas. And that is where leftist ideology comes from, and that can surely improve society somewhat and I’m certain that leftist ideas have done enough to create a new standard for what civilizations should aim for. And that’s good, the end.

But things are extreme today, the right want to go faaar right and the left want to go faaaaar left. This is just madness now, two extreme entities trying to split the balance. The leftists want to rip away the very foundation for which all civilizations are built upon, not only that, but without this foundation, there would basically be NO civilization anymore.

Thursday:
 2016-11-10

Yay, today the sound proofing panes arrived! Well, I had to get them myself. I drove to the store immediately on waking up… well almost; I showered and dressed up first! I believe each day should be enjoyed while being clean and nicely dressed, so you can win the day in style!

Anyhow, I began work as soon as I got home, and frankly, it took more time than I expected! I worked from noon to 3 AM, that’s 15 hours of work. DAUYMN. They had to be cut in certain way and what not, and the glue I had bought DIDN’T WORK AT ALL! How stupid, it clearly says on the package and on their website that the glue works on foam and sticks on every kind of material, but nope, wouldn’t stick to anything. Luckily I had one of those plastic-rod glue guns and a package filled with big rods. It was perfect timing, funny, because I had bought them like five years ago and it has just been sitting among my tools since then. I gave myself a pat on the shoulder, damn I’m good.

Here are a couple of photos:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMoJpmOg9LE/?taken-by=authorahmadwehbe&hl=en

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMpQUQdgOg0/?taken-by=authorahmadwehbe&hl=en

Friday:

2016-11-11

Continued working with the sound proofing, finished up after five hours. The total work it took for the sound proofing took around 20 hours, it was really tedious and nothing I could speed up, because I had to wait for the plastic-glue to melt and measure and cut the foam to fit.

But it was worth it, I’m really happy with how it turned out, my calculations were also 100% accurate, every piece of foam was used! No left over pieces and all areas are sound proofed! DAAAAMN, I’M THE BEST, and people don’t want to hire me, wow, what a bunch of losers who are missing out on such a winner as me.

Here is a photo of the final result:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BMrKq8kAHoU/?taken-by=authorahmadwehbe&hl=en

Spent the remainder of the day continuing my shopping on Amazon.com, adding books to my wish list, hoping there will be discounts on Black Friday!

I really don’t want to just buy any kind of book, so I’m focusing on buying novels written by the best of the best, big names, like Stephen King, Charles Dickens, Mark Twain and many more. Each author has their own expertise and that’s what I want to read and study. I’ve avoided reading novels for a long time because I felt like it would pollute my own style and voice. But I honestly feel like I have found my style and voice, but it lacks the warmth and depth I wish it had. I want my words my make the reader’s mouth water, I want my words to be tasty, if that even makes sense, hah. I don’t want to throw down lots of words on the paper and call it writing. The equivalent would be a painter throwing paint on the canvas. It just feels so stupid and disrespectful to the whole concept of art. I think the whole art-world has been overrun by lazy minds who are only in it for the money, so they fill the market with SHIT, that’s what is, SHIT. It is really stupid.

The book industry has now been overrun by money-hungry-scum for quite a few years now. It is not even anything useful or of quality. For example, there are those who re-produce classic comic book heroes by changing gender and such. The industry is just polluted with thieves and tricksters trying to make a few bucks by basically copy-pasting and making slight changes.

There are even fake companies who steal manuscripts and translate them into a different language and sell without paying anything to the original author.

This might sound weird now, but I blame the leftist and liberal agenda. They have turned many generations into nothing but godless and lost souls who have no dignity or respect for other people’s rights. And this then affects the entire world in every aspect.

Societies have for a long time linked crime to low education, yet, the crime that affects society the most are done by educated criminals who work the loopholes in the law, leaving lawmakers stunned, because the process to implement laws takes time.

Here in Sweden for example, it is known that criminals start up a company and then use that company to falsely send bills to people and threaten with various consequences if they don’t pay the bill. This has been going on for years, yet, nothing is done about it. The criminals just open a new company and repeat the process over and over again.

It is the same with the company that is trying to trick me into paying in cash. I researched into their background and it turns out that they had previously cheated with the taxes and gotten away with around $2 million, consequences? NOTHING, their company was shut down. BUT THEY JUST STARTED A NEW ONE… Sweden is a paradise for criminals. The law enforcement is so weak that they have to ask the FBI for help into solving cases. I didn’t know the FBI worked outside U.S. territory, but wow, that says a lot about the strength of Swedish law enforcement… it doesn’t exist! GOD bless the FBI.

Saturday:
2016-11-12

What a wonderful a world ooooh yeaaaaah. Today I took my 8 km walk, felt great, came home, took out the trash, lots of stuff that had to be thrown out. I re-did my computer-office-area, it is perfect now, taking even less space which has opened up a whole space for my exercise equipment.

Wrote a few comic scripts and spend a couple of hours writing them into the computer. I’ve decided to stop writing comic scripts during my walks, the work doesn’t flow enough without research, and I can’t do research while being outside. So, I will instead work on my novels while taking my walks and then when coming back home I will be working on the comic, with all tools available to me.

I also decided to make my own pots… I know, I know, I said I wouldn’t do that… but seriously… I CAN’T FIND POTS, I need very specific kinds of pots, but they are so damn expensive. Anyways, I’m going to give it another shot, I will check some stores and see what they got… otherwise I will just go on ahead and make them myself. I already have the design in my head, also some tricks, like making the inside tilt to one side so the water drains into one direction, out a hole and then having a piece of cloth that sucks up the water which I then squeeze the water out of once a week. Easy peasy! This prevents insects from laying eggs in shallow water, so it is a perfect solution.

Sunday:
2016-11-13

Went out for my 8 km walk, the plan was to work on the novel I started drafting four weeks ago… well, it didn’t go that well. The problem is that I had most of the story in my head, so each morning, I was basically writing down stuff I have thought about and solved around bed time the day before. And well, 4 weeks later and I kind of lost track of some stuff, so I spent time re-reading everything I had written so far, to be certain about what I had already written and what needs to be solved. So I spent most of the day just trying to figure this out while doing something else. I continued adding books to my Amazon.com wish list, watched some youtube clips, played a little 7days2die, a zombie survival open world construction game… in my honest opinion, it is the best game ever created in this genre.

A silly headache crept upon me in the afternoon, but I fought it as much as I could. Sat down on the bean bag in the library and meditated on the novel I, I went deep into memory lane. Took me an hour to quickly go through the plot, I then began writing, but only managed to write for one hour before going to bed. Stupid headaches, how dare they!?

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 44, Did Some Gravedigging!

Monday:
2016-10-31

Isn’t it weird that a new week begins at the exact end of a month? Maybe we should invent a new date-system, it is kind of outdated after all, don’t you agree? There is actually no such thing as weeks or name of the days. There are only days, months and years, scientifically speaking.

Went out and ordered 28 mattresses, yup, crazy as it might sound, that’s how many I will be needing, 60×120 cm each. I won’t be using the ones I bought last week, the “old stuff” smell is still there so I’m going to throw them away instead. These new ones are clean and perfect. They had 11 of them in stock, but I only grabbed 8 and the rest will arrive somewhere in the middle of next week. So that’s one problem DEFINITELY on its way to get fixed.

Did some research for how to best fasten them on the wall and found a glue that is supposed to replace nails and screws, but I’m afraid it will leave a mark on the wall, so I sent the company that produces them an email, hoping for a response by tomorrow so I can go out and buy the glue from a local dealer and start working on the sound proofing!

I also went out to a local bookstore, they basically had no titles in English, everything was translated to Swedish… that sucks, I prefer to read books in their original language and also to buy locally to support local companies and the community as a whole, but I guess for books I will be buying from Amazon.com!

I watched one The Big Bang Theory episode and then began watching Sherlock, the very first episode… I can’t believe they are two hours long, that’s insane. Anyways, I don’t feel like binge watching anything though, I save that for days when my brain is fried or when I have severe headaches. Every second counts in life! Managed to write a few comic scripts before falling asleep.

Tuesday:
2016-11-01

Look, a new month, holy crap, time moves fast. I had planned to release at least one novel this year, but look at me, starting new projects all the time. What was I thinking when I said I would finish this comic thingy in just a month if I wrote 20 scripts a day and then created 4 comic issues each day after that…was I on drugs? Nope, I don’t do drugs, so that can’t be it. Was I insane?? I don’t know, people do call me a crazy mother fucker, but that can’t be it either. Hmm, I wonder, oh yeah, now I know, I was day dreaming! Typical me!

It was a pretty hectic day, spent a couple of hours applying for some jobs and, ate breakfast, just a chill day… at least the first half of it. Things took off for real in the afternoon, I drove my mother to buy some groceries, she planned to recycle a few soda bottles and use the money to buy meat for $3 bucks! Anyways, I told her to just buy anything she wanted; the bill went up to $59 bucks! Whatever, I then drove a few blocks to a home depot to buy glue so I can install the sound proofing.

Bought two bottles and while looking around the shop, I found out that they are also selling big long shelves…so I thought… WHY NOT! I bought one big wooden board measuring 400×2000 mm.

Anyways, once home, I sawed it to fit inside the sound booth and suddenly I had a big desk inside the sound booth, perfect! But then I thought… hmm… if only I had one more, but not as broad then it would be perfect as a shelf! So I went out this time on my bicycle and bought one wooden board measuring 300×2000 mm and an additional one measuring 300×1500 mm. The cashier got mad at me because I said hurry up, what a bitch, I was talking to the machine, the laser thingy refused to register my product, so I shouted at it, he thought I was critiquing his inabilities, anyhow, what a bitch.
Once home, I began sawing and screwing the shelves and it was just perfect. The 300×1500 mm was cut in two pieces to make for an L shape. And it was sturdy enough to lay down on… I even pondered if I perhaps should marry two women and let them sleep on one shelf each!

Wednesday:
2016-11-02

Woke up, showered and then went out to dig a grave. What a normal way to start your day, right? Well, my aunt has an old dog that is sick, they are putting him down to end his suffering, sadly. I helped dig out the grave into a better shape, it looked more like a circle when I got there, perhaps it was some new age shit, I don’t know, I made into a proper rectangle once done. I worked on the casket as well, made it smaller, had to do a lot of sawing and screwing, that sounds weird…let’s try nailing… well ok that made it worse. Stupid naughty language!

Once I was done with that, I went to the shop where I had ordered the bean bag I mentioned last week… or the week before that! Anyways, it has finally arrived, yay! It was perfect and so damn comfy, it has a headrest which also takes shape as you sit and move around, a really nice feature, this is one step closer to finish my library!

I thought about going out to shop for the plants today, but then I thought, hey, the plants don’t come with the pots, so I basically have to buy pots anyways, and the pots at the store might not be what I like, so HEY, I have to buy pots first! And Saturday this weekend is the perfect day for that, every first Saturday of each month, there is a public hangar were people come and sell their stuff, like an old school marketplace / bazaar, so I’m hoping to find some good stuff then… and honestly… I feel like making my own pots using concrete mix… they will get that natural rocky touch… mmm… sexy. Hopefully I will find something that pleases me so I don’t have to START YET A NOTHER PROJECT!

Thursday:
2016-11-03

Headache, nausea, spent the day cleaning up some final details, sorted lots of books, placed them on the bookcases, threw away stuff I didn’t need, researched a little more on plants and how they produce oxygen, was trying to figure out if they produce more oxygen than they use when there is no sunlight. But couldn’t find any answer. Anyways, the entire room was filled with dust because I had opened the window the day before, there was basically no dust, or rather a minimal amount of dust, then when I opened the window, the room got filled with dust. Coughed like hell all day because of that. The weather has been shit so I haven’t been able to take my 8 km walks, I feel so damn unproductive without those walks, they are my addiction, well almost.

Headache and nausea sucks, so I just spent the remainder of the day binge watching Sherlock.

The TV series is basically a modern adaptation, and this new Sherlock Holms version seems more like a robot than the Sherlock Holms in the books. Also, his frantic behavior is kind of silly, but it does add contrast for when he gets all serious. I guess it was hard for the writers to show his playful side without using extreme examples. But again, I have only read the old first few Sherlock Holms books, I have no idea how the character develops in the later books.

Friday:
2016-11-04

No more feeling sick, yay. But I do feel the weakness in my body, so it is perhaps not that great of an idea to exhaust and strain myself.

I knew I was going to be sick yesterday, because I remember feeling weak in Tuesday, towards the end of the day. I don’t know how to explain it, but I feel like I can sense the signals in my body, I know the difference between being tired and if I have gotten infected by a virus or bacteria. And when that happens, I usually just take it easy, relax, eat and drink as little as possible to give the body less distractions. I go out for fresh air and relax and keep my body warm. But I didn’t do that this time, instead I went out the next day, on Wednesday and worked my butt off the whole day, and I guess that’s why the virus or whatever won and made me sick.

Planned on taking my 8 km walk today, but it rained all day. That sucks.

I didn’t do much today, I did build a bookcase for my mother according to her design, since we couldn’t find anything similar in any shop! Just need to make shelves for it then it’s done.

Spent the remainder of the day chilling in bed, listened to some music while working on some comic scripts, fell asleep after two hours and woke up four hours later, almost at midnight. Falling back to sleep was a pathetic struggle, so I just watched documentaries and interviews on YouTube until I fell asleep again.

Saturday:
2016-11-05

Today I went out and bought a few pots that I liked, they were not exactly how I wanted them, but meh, who cares. The exact type I want cost anything between $100 and $1000, so yeah, it’s not that important. Maybe in the future when I actually have cash to spend on such expensive decorations!

I spent a couple hours going through all the plants I wanted to buy to figure out how many pots will be needed, which resulted in a total of 37 pots! Can you imagine the price tag on that if I bought them for $100 or $1000 each? YIKES!

Been raining for two days straight now, no kidding, just rain rain rain. I guess that’s one big issue with this writing while taking a walk thingy. Anyways, if this keeps up then I might skip the writing and just go for a walk anyways. It’s too important to skip, health wise.

Spent some time facebooking… damn I really need to stop doing that. But, what can I say… I just don’t feel like working intensively… I just get restless and unfocused. It must be because of the lack of exercise the last few weeks. Whatever, I’m not going to complain, things are going forward, soon everything will be perfect and I won’t have anything more to whine about… or will I??? DAM DAM DAM DAAAAM. Stay tuned!

Sunday:
2016-11-06

Wasn’t in the mood for much today, I wrote a few comic scripts and then watched YouTube and movies all day while checking out live streams of Trump rallies. I find it silly that there is even a competition, Trump should win by 100% votes, I don’t like either candidate, but, politically speaking, Trump offers the better change. Hillary wants to continue leading the country towards socialism. She wants the government to depend on tax money and the people to depend on government welfare. Obamacare is welfare, just so you know, welfare under a different name.

It might not be obvious to Hillary supporters, but in the future, we will all see the results, people will depend on the government and the government will depend on taxes. Which means as more and more people depend on the government, the more the government has to increase taxes, until a balance is found.

And once that happens, then you have a socialist/communist country, the government will be able to dictate what you must do with your life in order to get that welfare check or that healthcare benefit. They will demand of you to do things in return for receiving your right to that support check. That’s how it works.

Trump on the other hand wants government to depend less on taxes and want the people to depend less on the government, by simply making it easier and less costly to start a business. It’s a no brainer right there, that alone should be enough for 100% of the U.S. population to vote for Trump. It makes absolutely no sense for Hillary to receive a single vote after you read that Trump is going to make it easier and less costly to start a business and run a business.
By lowering taxes, businesses will be able to invest more in other areas that can improve the business and create even more jobs.  It’s such a simple thing to understand, do yourself, your future self, your family and your children and your grandchildren a big favor, vote Trump.

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 43, I Giggle Like a Little Girl at My Own Jokes

Monday:
2016-10-24

Laid down in my bed most of the day, writing scripts for the comic I’m working on. Did a lot of reading, research for the topics I’m writing about, was surprised that philosophers and modern psychologists have come to the same conclusion about anger as I did in my book “GOD THE CREATOR”. I didn’t research the topic back then when I wrote about it because the entire purpose is to present the world with my philosophical conclusions. And everything is true in so far, I’ve not had many critique my work yet. I did receive some angry comments from atheists who refused to accept anything, as usual, even if it is completely true. Whatever, the book hasn’t sold much anyways, and that’s good and bad. Because I’m hoping to remake it a little before it starts selling, I’m thinking about a new format, making it bigger and include image examples that explain the various concepts that I’m talking about, kind of like a school textbook. This has been long on my mind, but I really don’t want to invest time on that, I got so many other projects I need to finish first.

Anyhow, didn’t do much else today, spent the first half of the day applying for jobs and just reading and writing. And the other half I spent cleaning my new room, organizing my clothes, going through boxes upon boxes of stuff. Found old warhammer space maries models, tried to find their value on the internet but couldn’t find any, perhaps they are super rare? Not produced anymore? THEN I’M RICH, just kidding, all the models are basically ripped apart because of my hundreds of nephews. They chewed on them, threw them around, ripped them apart, fantastic! Might try to put them together someday and sell them, but not anytime soon.

Tuesday:
2016-10-25

Went outside after my daily shower, had to buy some stuff, I bought silicon insulation tubes for the windows in my room. The old one seem to be damaged for some reason, cold air keeps sipping inside, which isn’t so great if I’m going to place plants indoors, the cold will damage the plants. I also bought a 9 litre paint bucket for my brother so he can fix his room; he got a bit jealous of how nice my room and the living room turned out. Bought a tube of spackling paste as well, he doesn’t even know what spackling is, what a sad world we live in.

I came home, dumped all the items and then went out again to buy groceries; I spent around $90 on enough groceries to last an entire month. That’s a lot of stuff for very little money spent. I have no idea how my mother manages to spend $50 each week on groceries that don’t last more than a few days. It’s always the same story, the buys stuff that only lasts the first few days, and then we have to live on bread and butter for the rest of the week, makes no sense, it doesn’t add up.

Anyways, I came home carrying six bags, it all weighted a bit more than 40 kg in total, I cooked a delicious soup and then spent the remainder of the day binge watching a TV series. Started watching Lucifer, a funny series about the devil taking a vacation from his job in Hell! I almost watched the whole first season in one sitting before going to bed. It’s a small cast, not many main characters and you kind of feel that, but it does get better, it improves a lot as time goes forward, more characters are introduced etcetera. I believe the focus has been on character development for the most part, because the characters in the series do evolve and that is very interesting, usually series have very static characters, but not this series, the characters maintain their original definition but they do adjust to their new environment. They are after all divine creatures trying to fit into a human society.

I don’t want to preach, but I just hope that people realize that this is just fiction and not an actual representation of Satan. But I do want to address one issue that I keep hearing from people who usually hate GOD. They actually believe that Satan is innocent and was forced to do GOD’s dirty deeds and take the blame for it. But that’s far from the truth. Satan chose to leave, he was an angel before he made that decision and when he decided to leave then he became the first jinn and renamed into Satan. His wings were never cut off, so he isn’t an angel with cut-off wings. No, he is an entire different being, far from being an angel. And that was completely his choice, nobody forced him.

He was one of GOD’s mightiest angels, and all that power made him think “hmm, why can’t I be my own god?”. And that’s the origin of the entire dispute. He chose to follow his ego, to prove to GOD that he too can be a god of his own. GOD didn’t put Satan in hell, hell doesn’t even exist yet.

GOD, out of his mercy, gave Satan and everyone who believed Satan’s concept a chance to test their claims, to see with their own eyes that there truly can only be one god and that is GOD.

So, we are all here on earth because we thought there can be more than one god. The first god is our own ego; we all worship our own ego. And that’s basically what Satan does as well, he worships his own ego and that became his downfall, and it also became our own downfall. And as long as we worship our ego, we will then end up in hell, which will be created (the eights universe) once this test is over (when the last humans have been born).

Wednesday:
2016-10-26

Woke up late way past noon, was really tired so I began the day by just continuing binge watching Lucifer. Finished watching all episodes around the afternoon. That’s when I continued cleaning and organizing stuff, it took a lot of time to figure out where most things should be and how I wanted to organize everything in my room. Like papers, notebooks, empty binders, keys, and all kinds of other small stuff. And the end of the day though, I was pretty happy with how things turned out, I still got a few things fix. The shelves, Ikea did respond and it’s basically one shelf per package, so the price is extremely expensive, so I will be buying an entire new bookcase instead, get four shelves and cut up the rest of the bookcase into homemade shelves, I will be saving $100 by doing this. Yes, there will be a lot of sawing and work involved, but I’m guessing it will take me four to six hours to complete the job. And guess what, that’s still cheaper than over-spending on shelves. Because $100 divided by six hours is $16,66 or $17 an hour, so I’m basically paying myself an above minimum wage! So yeah, shove it you damn nay sayers! Whoever is reading this and saying nay, shove it! Hah!

Anyhow, it feels like things have slowed down a bit, not much is being done, at least not the amount that I wish had been done up to this point. Too many circumstances that are out of my power, and that sucks. Basically I need to do this and that and this and that. So whatever, I still need to get a hold of soundproofing panes for the sound-booth that I made. Those are expensive, so my idea was to get mattresses, cut them up and get that done. But it has been a struggle to find cheap mattresses, I will have to make an ad I guess and see if someone is selling any in my town. I have already mentioned the deal with the bookcases and shelves. And all that’s left I guess are the plants! I guess I will start working on that as soon as possible, perhaps in the weekend.

Thursday:
2016-10-27

A slooooooow late day, cooked food then relaxed in front of the computer, watched YouTube clips, interviews and such. Watched an interview – or rather – a talk between Stephen King and George R. R. Martin, I didn’t know they were buddies! It’s interesting how authors are somehow more grownup. Sure, not all authors are, but those successful seem to have so much inside of them, this can’t be faked. Both Stephen and George shared many details about their life and it taught me that they have had their struggles in life. And experience can’t be faked, this is what makes people deep because they understand, they’ve been in the shoes of poor, the bullied, the hurt, the oppressed etc.

I speak of this in my book “GOD THE CREATOR”, that experience cannot be learned, the closest one can get to it is by linking other experiences to somehow understand a new experience. For example, let’s say you’re born rich, you will never know how it feels like to be poor. Sure, you can experiment and move to a smaller house, avoid luxuries, food and clothes. But in the end, it’s a fake experience because you know deep inside that at the of the day, you’re still rich and can return to your old ways whenever you want.

Another example I used was that you could somehow understand other experiences by linking other experiences, but it would still not be 100% accurate. So let’s say you’re rich and you read about poor people and their struggle, you can then try to find similarities between their suffering and your own suffering. Like your parents denied you a car when you were ten years old and thus you felt injustice. So you use that experience to understand the injustice the poor suffer. But at the end of the day, you simply can’t compare the two. Experience cannot be faked, it’s that simple.

I hate it when people try to understand the things I have gone through by using their own SILLY experiences. It makes no sense, you can’t compare apples with oranges. Anyways, whatever. I’m not saying that you should throw away everything you own so you can experience poverty, it wouldn’t work because you’re already grown up… try being a child in a poor home, you can’t get that or experience that UNLESS you HAVE experienced it. Does that make you a bad person? NO! It does NOT! Just focus on the NOW, be mindful of your environment and the people around you. GROW NOW, cherish what you have now and that will be the experience you will need for your future projects. Travel, meet people, try new things, don’t imprison yourself in comfortabilities. Don’t throw yourself into harm’s way of course, duh.

Well well, after watching some interviews, I went to lay down and wrote a few comic scripts before dozing off for two hours. Woke up to play some Elder Scrolls Online, but I simply don’t that urge to play so I shut it off after thirty minutes and went back to lay down in the bed to work some more, watched a few more YouTube, had to catch up to some Good Mythical Morning episodes on my smartphone, then fell back to sleep again! I could watch Rhett & Link for the rest of my life, like really, they are just such amazing and fun people.

Friday:
2016-10-28

Showered then went straight out into the wilderness called the outdoors, outside, or whatever the myth is called. Pulled out some cash from the ATM and then went to a local furniture store to check if they had a bean bag I was interested in buying. They were sold out but got them to order one for me, so that’s one thing I can cross out from my list of million things to do!

I then spent the day, I’m so ashamed to say this… but it’s a journal… I… I… was Procrastinating the whole day on Facebook!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, damn it, WHY WHY WHY. Whatever, I managed to write a few comic scripts, so I didn’t throw away the entire day!

So yeah, that’s all for today.

Saturday:
2016-10-29

Brrrr, so cold, I tried to resume taking my daily 8 km walks again, but wow, the weather turned into freezing cold really quick in just two weeks. I turned back home once my fingers began to freeze stiff. DAMNIT, now I have to add more stuff to my to do list, I will have to get some gloves, long johns, can’t believe they are called long johns… BWAHAHAHAHAHA, anyhow, and a warm cap so I can resume taking my daily walks!

I contacted an old lady who had some stuff for sale, I will be buying them tomorrow, yay. It’s basically a bunch of mattresses I will be using as sound insulation for my sound booth. Primitive, I know, but it’s the cheapest solution I can come up with. I really don’t want to spend $500 on sound proofing! It won’t be as effective, but it is better than nothing. And hey, nothing is nothing! (no shit Sherlock).

My brother’s kids had a sleep over, so it was hard to get any job done, they constantly shout, fight and enjoy watching and playing at the highest volume.

I did manage to write a few comic scripts that I was happy with, I’m not really happy with how slow this process has been, but again, I have had so much else to do.

My plans to buy plants this weekend were ruined as well, because my brother’s car broke down and he needed to borrow the car I was going to use to transport all the flowers and plants in. I could just do it on the bicycle, but I’m afraid the cold would kill the flowers during transportation. So yeah, thanks a lot universe, sometimes it is for the best, perhaps there is something good that will come out of it, right? But let’s face it, most of the time it’s just pure annoying bullshit.

Sunday:
2016-10-30

Woke up early, took a shower and then went out to get those mattresses I mentioned last time.

I thought it would be a simple thing to do, but had issues transporting them on my bicycle, GREAT. No car. Another problem is that I didn’t think they would be dirty, fucking dirty. I had to vacuum them and then clean them with a vapor steam cleaner. Lots of hair strands, yummy, hair from stranger… I wonder if it is their pubic hair, YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY *pukes*. Anyhow, I hope they are clean now, they had this”old stuff” smell, no idea what causes that, like, is there a perfume called “old stuff”, such a weird smell, and it is the same smell no matter where you go in the world, “old stuff smell”. I thought of making a research about it but nah, got so much else to do.

This whole ordeal took quite a big chunk out of my day, so it was already in the afternoon once I finished up. I spent the remainder of the day watching youtube clips, facebooking, and writing comic scripts, I managed to write quite a few actually, some very epic ones that made me giggle like a little girl before falling asleep.

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 40, Stopped Playing League of Letards

Monday:
2016-10-03

Why are Mondays so hated? Well, I think I know why… I’m tired, I’m feeling sick, headache, and it is sunny yet so damn cold. Is it fair to blame Monday for that? Perhaps not, I’m not a Mondaycist! I have my ways of getting through Modays. I start off by eating breakfast and then go to sleep again. Goodnight!

Well I couldn’t fall asleep so I just laid there resting and watched some video clips on youtube.

The headache remained the whole day, but it got milder at the end of the day. Did some work on my author bio, there is always room for improvement. Wrote a few comic scripts as well.

Most of the day went towards socializing and taking care of administrative work such as checking accounts, sending emails and applying for jobs.

I’ve also been thinking a lot about what to stream, once I set that up. Do I really want to stream gaming? I’m not really feeling that one. I only play for enjoyment, not competitively, so I doubt anyone wants to see a noob like me playing! I know I want to paint and draw on stream, that seems fun. And I have this idea of writing stories live with the help of the viewers, but don’t know how that is going to work out, the copyright seems like a big problem. Perhaps I must force the viewer to accept some terms, so they can never claim any material. I don’t know, seems like too much work. Perhaps gaming and drawing is enough!

Tuesday:
2016-10-04

My jogging shoes have been air drying for the last couple of days, so I’ve not been able to take my daily 8 km walks.

I went to bed at around 6 am and woke up at 9 am, so I’ve not gotten much sleep either. I have no idea how people can manage to talk on the phone for four hours straight, their brain must be fried by now, that would at least explain their behavior.

Anyways, no headache today, at least that’s something for me to cherish! Spent five hours doing various things, such as applying for jobs, checking email, social media, cleaned up old twitter posts and played a little video games.

I didn’t write much today, but worked ten hours straight on designing my merchandize, testing hundreds of products to see which will fit my design and trying out things to figure out what I can do specifically for each product. So I’m basically making a list of I’ll be using my design on each of the available product. It’s basically an elimination process, I want to focus on a few products and give each product a unique design element, a purpose of its own. It is extremely time consuming to try out all the different things, I had to spend most of the time figuring out how the tools work on zazzle.

I did some of this work yesterday actually, that’s why I was up until 6 am, and basically did the same today. Hopefully I can get some sleep this time…

 

Wednesday:
2016-10-05

Such a slow day, I felt fine, but still couldn’t get rid of this restlessness, felt like I had to eat, drink, move, sprint, jump etc constantly. Restless Leg Syndrome much? Whatever, I was frustrated today that’s all. Tried to do as much work as possible. Wrote a few scripts and worked late checking out products on zazzle, testing designs.

I guess that pretty much sum it up, and oh yeah, I got banned from League of Legends! I uninstalled it for good this time, never playing such crap again, also never supporting anything from Riot (the company behind League of Legends). They are big supporters of “safe-zone” attitude. They are basically the type of people you feel disgusted by because they have this victim mentality, “please feel sorry for me”. Anything you say is basically taken as a threat. Well, let me give you an example, imagine playing football, and while playing on the field, you notice a person on your team that could play better if they fixed something, perhaps tie their shoes or take off their blind-fold. Obvious things to you, but perhaps not them because they somehow lack the ability to understand that their shoe laces need to be tied and that they need to remove the blindfold to see and be able to play properly. So basically you have this person on the team that is making you lose and you tell them what to do. What happens now is that the audience will call you an asshole and demand that you are removed from the game.
Does this seem …stupid to you? Do you cringe at the thought of this? Well, that’s League of Legends for you. Good game, but the community is like cancer, slowly killing the value of playing it. They run a tribunal system, which allows anyone to basically judge you if someone has reported you. I get reported every game for all kinds of things, I was once reported for my name “ahmad”, the players were calling me a “muslim bastard”, I thought to myself; there is no way they will ban me for such a thing? Surely Riot doesn’t support racism and xenophobia? But guess what, I was banned, and Riot denies responsibility. Even though they’re the ones who set up the entire tribunal system and empower it! I don’t think they understand the concept of responsibility. Now I’m not saying I didn’t say bad stuff to others, but at least they deserve it for insulting me. Riot is basically against self defense, they want you to turn the other cheek. If someone punches you then they want you to tie your hands behind your back and let that person punch you freely. Like I said, they are promoters of “safe zones”, and will teach millions of its users that it is okay to be weak minded.
That was the end of my rant, I urge people to stop playing it completely. There are other similar games with a more friendly community, go play those instead.

Thursday:
2016-10-06

Today I bought materials to tidy up and paint the living room, that took perhaps one hour. And then spent the entire day just playing Elder Scrolls Online… wow, how productive I’ve been today. I BLAME the lack of sleep that I’ve been getting, I’m kinda feeling the drain, it’s like I have to force myself to do stuff. Body feels heavy and clumsy, really lazy feeling. Maybe I’m sick and dying, or it’s just the effects of not sleeping well enough!

Anyways, I managed to write a few scripts for the comic and worked on testing out some zazzle.com products to see if my designs fit well enough. Worked a little bit on preparing the living, I guess I’ll be busy with fixing stuff the coming week or two.

Some good news though, my jogging shoes are clean and dry now, can finally take my daily walks again.

Friday:
2016-10-07

Took a long walk today and worked on my novels for a couple hours, and also worked a little on designs for zazzle.com. Wrote a few scripts for the comic and then spent the rest of the day just hanging out with family.

Saturday:
2016-10-08

Skipped my walk today, there were really harsh cold winds. Got around four hours of sleep as well, my mind was pretty much just wandering, could hardly focus on any work. Spent some time playing Elder Scrolls Online and then came up with new ideas and solutions for my novels. I will actually break it into short stories or novellas, the one that’s still at plotting stage. I believe this is perfect and fits exactly my original intention for the story. It will allow me the freedom to tell the story exactly how I want it without breaking too many writing rules which would just make the reading seem disconnected and chapters flying all over the place. So might as well cut it up into short novellas!

Sunday:
2016-10-09

Well well well, today I moved stuff around, helped my brother move his stuff to his new apartment. I will be taking his old room and turn it into my studio/office. Sure, living at home sucks, but it has its perks, I basically don’t have to spend a single minute on cooking food or buying necessities. Let us count those hours. If I had my own place, then I have to cook food daily and clean and wash clothes and do the dishes, buy groceries, etc. Those add up quickly.

Cooking food every day can take anything from 20 minutes to 1 hour, so let us average that at 35 minutes a day, and add 10 minutes to eat it, so 45 minutes.

Buying groceries is done once or twice a week, going to the shop is a trip that takes 20 minutes, and 20 minutes back. Then picking stuff you want to buy is perhaps 5 minutes if you know what you need. Otherwise it would take 10 to 15 minutes. And then another 1 to 5 minutes waiting in line so 15 minutes to do the shopping, so 55 minutes each shopping event.

Washing takes 5 minutes, then another 5 minutes to move the clothes to the dryer and then comes the folding of the clothes, which takes 10 to 20 minutes. So we are up in 25 minutes, daily. Yes, there is always something to wash.

The dishes take 10 minutes to put into the dishwasher and 20 minutes to sort it afterwards, so the average of that is around 15 minutes.

Taking out the trash, yuck, is 5 minutes, taking it out, do some clean up and set up a new bag.

Cleaning, dusting off, wipe the table and other stuff, vacuum, this takes around 30 to 50 minutes, so an average of 40 minutes.

That is 130 minutes spent daily on chores (if you are quick about it), and a total of 910 minutes + 55 minutes for shopping = 965 minutes spent each week on chores. That’s 16 hours total spent each week on chores.

That’s why it is good to have slaves who do the work, umm, I meant children and loved ones!!! Definitely not slaves!!! Heh…

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com

Week 39, The Importance of Research

Monday:
2016-09-26

Today was pretty slow, took my 8 km walk but was too distracted to write anything. And when I got home, I was simply too light headed, since I barely got any sleep. On days like this, I usually prefer physical work, watch movies or read a book.

This happens often, my brain scatters easily into thousands thoughts. Any effort into focusing simply drags me away to something completely different and I lose track of time. To deeply absorbed by thoughts.

Anyhow, I did manage to get some work done, although it took more time than it should have. Finished editing last week’s blog post and made lots of laborishy tasks, like redesigning my blog theme. But wasn’t really super happy, the blog posts seem too squished in the center. Please message me and tell me what you think, I would really appreciate your input.

I began feeling more focused in the afternoon, spent 8 hours working on the comic. Researched into a few topics and wrote a dozen scripts the first 5 hours. And spent the other 3 hours designing how the title elements are going to look like, pretty happy with the result!

Tuesday:
2016-09-27

Got some proper sleep this time, took my 8 km walk and got a lot of writing done. Got a bit unsure of where the chapter is going, too much back-story is going on. And I wrote it in a first person but felt like a long speech, I will probably change it to a third person view instead.

Cleaned piles of paperwork, made sure all the bills were paid. And it was just work the whole day after that. I discovered that writing scripts isn’t that easy at all, even if it’s for short comic strips. Coming up with ideas is harder than I thought; they have to be somewhat funny as well!

It took a lot of effort to just write a few scripts, more time than what I presumed it would take. However, after a couple of hours my brain was just blank, but I had to work. So I began researching the topic I was writing about and that pretty much solved everything. I was writing comic strips about anarchists, and sure, I had a few funny ideas, but those only amounted to three scripts. That’s all my brain could come up with by itself. However, I went ahead and searched the internet for information about anarchy and anarchists. And after one hour of doing this kind of research, I managed to write an additional six scripts! They also became the better ones, since they are based on real life events. And we all know how funny life can be! Dilemma, karma, irony, it’s all there, just sit in the park for a while and you’ll see. Humans are hilarious.

Wednesday:
2016-09-28

Not gonna say if I slept good or bad, because even I don’t know that, I slept 4 hours, woke up, then slept another 4 hours. Or perhaps I just laid there thinking so much that time just passed me by. I don’t know. I’ve forgotten what a good night’s sleep feels like! Nonetheless, I took my 8 km walk and did some writing on that novel, things are getting pretty interesting, I’ve just started it and already have a dozen deep and unique characters, I think that’s great, but it’s making my main characters a little pale in comparison. Anyways, my antagonist seems to dominate the entire story, which is good. And for greater effect, I will be making the protagonists much smaller and almost pale them out completely. I want the reader to grow along them; I think this is a good technique to create a bond with the reader. For example look at Harry Potter, the story begins from the time he is a child. Also, look at Naruto, the series begin from his childhood. The observer grows alongside the protagonist. However, I believe this effect is mostly about having the story begin in a setting the reader can recognize themselves in. For example, in LOTR and The Hobbit, the journey starts out from a warm, cozy and safe home. This is easy for the reader to relate to. Or as in Naruto, it begins with a child doing all kinds of pranks to get attention; we’ve all done that as children, so it becomes easy to connect with Naruto. The protagonist needs to be introduced in a way that the reader can relate to.

Anyways, today was not that productive, I spent most of the day doing research and reading articles for how to design my products on zazzle.om, I’ve completely forgotten that I deleted everything I had so I could start from scratch. Damn, there is so much to do, feels so overwhelming. But oh well, one step at a time!

Thursday:
2016-09-29

Today I slept at 6am and woke up only 4 hours later, but I felt relaxed after a few hours, played 1 hour of Elder Scrolls Online and then one match of League of Legends, playing Teemo as support in ranked sure makes you hated!

Applied for some jobs and then continued working on writing scripts for my comic. It’s just boring tedious work right now, seems redundant to blog about it! I honestly didn’t get much done either, like I said, I didn’t get much sleep so I was just stressed out all day. I only came up with six scripts today, what was I thinking when I said I was going for 20 a day!? Whatever, having a list of topics and doing research helps a lot during days like these. Seriously, if you feel you’re too tired to be creative or have a writer’s block, then just make a list of topics you want to write about and do some research.

For example, let’s say you are writing a sci-fi novel, well, make a list of things that are related to space, machinery, materials, plastics, whatever, and research it. Plastic is toxic, hmm okay, you can spin that further and invent a sci-fi material that is harmless when it is solid, but extremely dangerous when liquid. But that seems predictable, right? How about this then, the plastic is harmless when it is liquid and extremely toxic when solid, reminds me a little about that Terminator in the second movie, harmless when liquid but ready to kill you when solid. Same idea can be applied here; perhaps this sci-fi plastic turns extremely hard, harder than steel when exposed to oxygen. Hey, why not spin that off even further, the liquid plastic takes solid shape depending on the gas it absorbs from its surrounding once it is poured out from its container. A military kind of plastic that allows warriors to adapt their armor to different planets they visit. It is turned back into liquid by sending electricity, some frequency that releases the gas the plastic has absorbed. I’ve barely slept, and I’m really tired, yet look how simple it is to be creative once you make a list of topics and research them. All this came from a small mundane thing; plastic!!!

Anyways, that’s all for today, I can barely think straight, hopefully I didn’t misspell too many words!

Friday:
2016-09-30

Did I get any sleep? No comment! But I did take my daily 8km walk, skipped it yesterday, so I had to take it… even though it was raining, and I’m not talking about a little rain, oh no, it poured down enough to clean the streets from leaves and dirt. My clothes were so wet that you would think I take showers with my clothes on!

Anyways, while writing scripts today for my comic, I discovered that it’s not exactly going to be politically correct. The topics are just so varied, anything from a light hearted joke to more serious and heavy topics. It’s nothing graphical, and honestly, it’s not that bad, but, it will trigger the bitter kind of folks, and GOD knows what they will do with their 24/7 free time. Or I just might tone it down a notch and see if I can make it less edgy. The purpose is to give people something to ponder about and still get a laugh out of it.

Saturday:
2016-10-01

Wow, time moves fast, I actually had plans for releasing at least one novel this year. Oh well, I doubt I can do that in just two months. I’m mostly focusing on the comic right now; I believe it is the best project to finish up right now. Because if everything goes according to plan, then I will be able to publish something each week four years straight, and I’m hoping this will slowly build up an audience for me while working full time on my novels and art.

Today I’ve mostly been frustrated about how people commit crime so easily and willingly, it’s disgusting. Whatever, it’s funny how bad people delude themselves that they are not doing anything wrong BECAUSE the LAW allows it. Like wow really? Damn maniacs! There is something called integrity. If you think it is okay to steal just because no one is watching or there is no consequence, then that makes you a shitty person, no matter how much you try to justify it.

At least I did get some work done, although I hoped I could’ve done more. I had to put the speakers on high volume to bear with the madness in this house. Children yelling, crying, goofing around, and lazy women who spend their days talking on the phone real loud for ten hours straight each day, madness! It is twisted and not normal at all, I’ve tried to do something about it, but it almost feels like they find new ways to annoy me. Like, I tell them I need to sleep, what do they do? Everything that makes sure I can’t sleep!
They’re ignorant of their own hate, they don’t really believe in GOD, so it is easy for the devil to manipulate them into harming me. Whatever, it’s only sleep anyways; I can sleep when I’m dead! But it is funny how people believe that hate is something that only manifests itself physically as in insults or violence. Only fools think this way, hate is much deeper and it manifests itself in behavior, attitude and actions as well. Those small things that build up into ruining other people’s life! Basically, I’m surrounded by people who degrade me and tell me that writing novels and such is not real work. They have zero respect for my privacy and concern for my well being. I believe that speaks volumes about how much hate they have in them, even if they don’t insult me directly or use violence to hurt me physically. The disrespect is mountainous. This has been going on for years, and I’ve just learned not to care about it and find solutions instead of whining. This is why I take a 8 km walk daily, I get most of my work done during this time because I can finally focus. I’m even considering adding more to it, perhaps 8 km in the morning, get back home sit down and write everything into the computer, then go out and take another 8 km walk or even 16 km, and then repeat. Theoretically, that would increase my productivity immensely. My only concern is that it will be difficult to do any kind of research while walking. But I’ll figure it out, since I’m going to write it on the computer anyways, and then I can look things up and make the changes that are needed.

Sunday:
 2016-10-02

It’s the end of the week, not much to mention. I’m really getting into this comic script writing, being able to produce a steady flow of material. I’m no expert at making comics; this will be my first one. I’ll explain how I write the scripts. Maybe someone out there can give me some input for how to improve upon it. Anyways, I start out with an idea, the message I want to express. Then I start testing out how many panels I need, by simply writing about the panels one at a time. Each row/panel is explained in a text that tells me which characters are in the panel, what they are doing, so I know what to draw later on. Then I add the narrative and dialog. I think it’s a simple process, not too rigid either which allows me the freedom to basically expand on it later on when I start drawing them out.

Since it was a Sunday today, I spent the day mostly playing League of Legends, yep, such a nerd. Wrote five scripts today, nothing impressive, but they’re gooood. And I want this to be a quality comic strip, each issue should have a good value of its own, be able to stand alone and still get people talking, laughing, loving or hating!

The idea is not to make a comic series that forces the reader to go to the beginning and read everything from the start. Nope, it’s going to be more like a Sunday comic strip. A weekly pleasurable read!

I also learned that there is no such thing as a small project! I never expected this to be this demanding, but hey, I’m learning about various topics each day, this research will benefit me later on as well, yay!

– A. Wehbe, www.ahmadwehbe.com